So I f-ed up my back again. I finally gave in last night and arranged to see the doctor, and took one of the painkillers he gave me last time. Now, it's a funny thing about these painkillers: they don't kill the pain at all. I sit there and think, hmmm, my back really really hurts. Wow, that hurts. I'm extremely uncomfortable right now. Gosh, this doesn't feel very good. The only difference is, after the meds, I no longer care. At all. I sit there and contemplate my pain, but it's as if it is happening to someone else. It's hard to explain, because I still do feel the pain, I just don't entirely notice it. I also slur my speech a lot. Funny, that people do this on purpose. |
